ANAL ANAL ANAL ANAL ANAL ANAL ANAL
Another little thingie i wrote for www.XCritic.com…
When I first got into the business, I used to constantly hear this conversation on set:
Girl 1: “I did an anal scene with [Insert name of male performer with a huge cock] last week.”
Girl 2: “Oh yah? I can fit pretty much anything into my ass. Have you ever done DOUBLE anal?”
Girl 1: “Not yet but I know I can. I’ve been double fisted by [Insert name of random pornstar.]”
I would sit there and think… What the fuck are these girls bragging about? Are they really trying to prove to eachother who can fit more into their butt?? Since when is having a huge asshole a GOOD thing?? Is this what porn does? Makes girls wanna constantly one-up eachother? Even if it means blowing out your asshole out??
Well… Here I am, almost three years later. I’m six months into doing Anal scenes. And guess what. I can see myself slowly turning into one of those girls. And here’s the scary part. I see it happening, and I cant stop it. And I sure as hell don’t want to.
It’s not necessarily a competition between myself and other girls. In fact, not at all. I’d say its more personal than that. Being in porn, I feel like I’m constantly looking to do more, and more, and more. Not for money, and not out of any sort of competitive-ness. It’s hard to explain exactly what it is. All i know is, in the span of 6 months, my asshole went from being terrified to shoot an anal scene, to doing a DP, to taking Lexington Steele, to getting opened up with a speculum and having huge toys shoved in, to getting fucked by my own fist, and finally, Double Anal with two huge cocks. And do I dare say it… Oh my gosh… There are days I’m shooting vaginal scenes, that i wish so badly the director will say the words “Lets just make this an anal scene.”
I am so fucking glad i made the choice to leap into shooting Anal. It’s like… there is this whole other world of sexual oppurtunity I was not taking advantage of. This whole other realm of pleasure I was not partaking in. I’m discovering all these new things i love, and the fact that people are watching it happen, and jerking off to it… Well that is just the icing on the cake.
Fuck, I love my job.